MIYUSIK.

Sabi ko ayoko ng kumanta. Sabi ko di ko na feel yun. Wala ng... SPARK. Pero hindi talaga siya umaalis sakin e. Lagi lang siyang andyan at narealize ko, I really wanna sing. Kahit saan. Kahit kailan. Lalo na kapag may magandang kanta, ansarap gumawa ng sarili mong version. ;)

MUSIC. One of the things that I can't live without. I like and I listen to all kinds of genres except Metal and Heavy Metal. It varies and it depends on my mood but the main kind or type of music i listen to is rock. Alternative/rock or pop/rock or slow/rock or whatever rock it is. Especially band songs. I'm not really into solo artist. I don't usually listen to Celine Dion type or Whitney Houston.

Paramore. Skillet. All time low. Versaemerge. Evanescence. We the Kings. Mayday Parade. Fall Out Boy. Linkin Park. Meg and Dia. The Maine. Simple Plan. Avastera. The Script. Eminem. A Rocket To The Moon. Maroon 5. He is We. Usher. Ashes Remain. Avril Lavigne. Train. Boys Like Girls. Breaking Benjamin. Bruno Mars. Casting Crowns. Chris Brown. Neyo. Yeng Constantino. Parokya ni Edgar. Kamikazee. Gloc 9. Jason Mraz. John Mayer. Rihanna. Sara Bareilles and etc..

I play guitar pero di bongga. Drums? Pangarap ko :))))) Sobrang pangarap ko. Piano, ok lang. Di rin ako marunong pero may kabisado ako. Hahaha. Gusto ko ngang magkamusic room e. Kaso uso sa horror ang music room e (or feeling ko lang). Nakakainis at nakakalungkot nga dahil di ako pwedeng magearphones or headphone dahil may something ako sa tenga. Pag kumanta, minsan sumasakit din. Pero it should not be a hindrance!

Sabi ko ayoko ng kumanta. Sabi ko di ko na feel yun. Wala ng... SPARK. Pero hindi talaga siya umaalis sakin e. Lagi lang siyang andyan at narealize ko, I really wanna sing. Kahit saan. Kahit kailan. Lalo na kapag may magandang kanta, ansarap gumawa ng sarili mong version. ;)

Blessing to sakin e and i really thank God for it. Kaya dapat tong ishare at maging blessing sa iba. <3

Thoughts would never leave me..

Staying up late feels good.

Lahat tulog na. The night is very peaceful. Everything seems to be in place. Mas gumagana utak ko, lalo na pag mga 3 or 4 ng umaga. But i'm also a scaredy cat. Buti na lang may net. I can't live without an internet connection. GUSTO KO KASING DUMALDAL kaso wala naman akong kadaldalan.

Facebook, tumblr, browse, check, surf, comment, like, blog, reblog, copy, paste, queue, review, search, watch, amaze, inspire, judge, type, add, text, capture, play, pause, stop, rewind, next, preview, previous...

I can't sleep. I wanna go somewhere. I wanna visit someone, everyone, anyone.. I wanna dance. I wanna talk. I wanna sing. I wanna do everything.. I don't wanna sleep.

Ang pagmamahal ng ipis sa isang paru-paro.

So it's been 5 days since sembreak. Not sure if 5 days. Mahirap kasi pag walang pasok, di mo alam ang date. Kahit nga may pasok di ko pa din alam ang date e. NVMND. Isa pa, nakakatamad ding maligo ng maaga. Late ako natutulog tas maaga nagigising. Stress break ata to e. Hahaha.

Anyway, i'm bored, kasi walang pera. I can't go anywhere. :(( I've made a tumblr account ulet. Nafeel ko lang ulet magganun after a very long time. http://ijustrockdude.tumblr.com/

Alam mo, gusto kong dumaldal ngayon. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Kaso kelangan ng ticket. E magpapabili pa lang ako.. Bakit? Bakit kelangan kong magdusa ng ganito?! Charot lang.

EI. Nabawasan pala ang pagkamoody ko ngayon. Galeng no. Alam mo ba.. na wala akong maisip. Sabaw ako ngayon. Gusto ko lang magtype at ipopost ko to kahit nonsense. NAIINIS PALA KO nakalimutan ko. HAHAHAHAH MUNTANGA NAKALIMUTAN. Eniweys. Nakakainis yung FEU Website kasi ayaw magbukas. :( Pero actually, di naman ako naiinis e kasi di naman pala ko atat makita yung grades ko. :)

^ang moody ng sinulat ko. Hahahaha

Sakit na ng mata ko. :(
Magbabadminton na lang ako? Or volleyball? E wala naman akong kalaro.. THEY ARE ALL BUSY!!
THE HECK I'LL PLAY BY MYSELF!

Umm.. gusto kong manuod ng horror sa sine. Hihihi :>

Gusto kong magzipline. Gusto kong lumangoy. Gusto kong umakyat ng bundok. Gusto ko magskateboard, gusto kong mag car racing..

I WANNA INHALE FRESH AIR tapos madamo at mapuno ang kapaligiran ko, tapos blue sky, tapos nakadress ako, tapos malakas ang hangin, hinawakan ko tuloy ang dress ko, tapos may nagpicture bigla, ipopost daw sa tumblr at lalagyan ng text. Hahahahahahahahaha.

Thankyou.


Ang pagmamahal ng ipis sa isang paru-paro.

Sorry sabaw.

'Cause i'm a sagittarian :)

Sagittarius Personality Profile

Light hearted Sagittarius is the happy optimist of the zodiac. Fun loving, and always high-spirited, Sagittarians add a wonderful dose of positive energy to any environment. For those born under the astrological sign of Sagittarius the glass is eternally half full. Saggitarians tend to be very attentive to the needs of others, and are very "tuned in" to what others are thinking. Their natural powers of perception, combined with their uplifting energy make them excellent conversationalists. Often gifted with an amazing sense of humor, Sagittarius can make almost anyone smile.

Sagittarians are extremely tactful and diplomatic for the most part -- although they are not afraid of bending the rules if it will make everyone happy. They are honest and respectful, but occasionally lose their temper if treated unfairly.

If Sagittarians experience moodiness or depression, they may hide this side of themselves from the rest of the world. While others see a light-hearted, happy side some Sagittarians always determined to at least "look happy" may conceal their moodiness, hiding it from others.

Sagittarians are always on the go. They love travel and prefer new things over esttablished patterns.

Sagittarius at Work:

In the workplace, Sagittarius is always well liked. In highly stressful and demanding work environments Sagittarians often provide a much-needed sense of stability. Their very presence can take an otherwise difficult interpersonal situation, and make it tolerable and even pleasant.

Sagittarians are very rule-minded people, and don't like to see others taking unfair advantage of a situation. They typically come to the aid of others, and are always able to find a positive solution in the most trying times. If you're in a tight spot, you'll always want a Sagittarian on your side. Hard working and always quick thinking, they always land on their feet.

Sagittarius in Love:

Extremely giving and honest, Sagittarians seek partners who they can trust implicitly. They seek soulmates with whom they can travel, explore new ideas and laugh. To Sagittarius, laughter is the root of all things.  (so true) No problem or situation is too serious for laughter -- and through laughter one can get through anything.

Sagittarians are very passionate, but often seek a light-hearted relationship for long periods before revealing their deeper, soulful side.

(http://www.ifate.com/astrology_signs_sagittarius.html)

*TRUE STORY BRO!! Everything is perfectly true :))

Mahabahabang kwentuhan.

Akalain mo yun! Hahaha. It's been five months less.. Daming bago. DAMING GASTOS. Every week 1K ang baon ko tas nung medyo huling weeks naging One Five. Oh money!

DORM. Sikip ampotek! Kasi naman for four people lang yun e, e dahil sa ganid na mga tao, ginawang animan. Sikip tuloy. Di ka makagalaw. No place for your things. Dagdagan pa ng napakakalat na roommate mo. Di ka makastretch! It would be stupid to move. Yung banyo medyo laging sira. May araw ngang nabarahan ung dalawang cr e so we don't have any choice but to use other units' cr or sa office. Ang init pa pala! Takte, ung mga binayad ko sa kuryente, siguro mga kalahati lang ang nafeel ko dun. Gusto ko lumipat pero one year after pa :(( Tiis tiis? 

Mga karoom mate ko:

Kat Ladao - 1st yr. BS Pharmacy sa CEU. Payat, maputi, makulit.

Kei Ladao - yes. magkapatid sila. 3rd yr Medtech sa FEU. Maliit. Di mukhang 3rd yr. :) Di mukhang college? Haha. Makulit, cute.

Arvie - akala ko nung una RB yan. Haha. Taga Binangonan. Dapat magri-risci pero nag BCC na lang. May third eye. Tahimik. Hilig magbasa, textbook pa! Swimmer ng FEU. 1st year Psychology, siyempre sa piyu. Lilipat na ng dorm sa 2nd sem sa may Pureza pero one year ang contract niya sa dorm :(

Bernalyn Summer - Ganda ng name, Summer :) MAKALAT POTEK! Di nagpalit ng beddings for the whole 5 months. <evil laugh> 2nd yr sa CEU. Mass com ata?

Marielle Santiago - Ang kahawig ni Lara Quigaman (spell?) na nagaaral ng Architecture sa FEU. 1st yr. Madalas puyat dahil sa plates. RISCI CLASSMATE :)

May nanakawan ng laptops and phones samin so may CCTV na kami dun na mukhang sinauna sa laki and may picture (for ID ata). May log in and out na din. Dito pa din ako sa next sem at next yr ata. Easy access e. :)) May mcdo pa. ;)


FEU MT12122. KEVS LANG. (Kiber na pinalandi.) Ayokong isa-isahin classmates ko. Tamad..
May TAJAJAK. Bantot ng pangalan hayop. Kami yun. Tatjana, Andrew, Jenne, Arnel, Jhong, Angelica, Kris Andrea.. tapos pag kasama si Jerome at Wong, Insert Name Here. Dami no. Describe each? Okay..
                                       
                                            

Tatjana - I want apple green color. Ako yung nasa picture. Maganda, Cute, Sexy, Matalino, Singer, Dancer, Skateboarder, Racer, Swimmer.. Charaught lang.

Andrew - Orange kasi, wala lang. KPOP. Highschool schoolmate. Never naging classmate. ULTIMATE FOOD SOURCE. Matalino. Shy. Takot, lalo na umorder. Pag nagsalita, tatagos sayo kasi masakit kasi the truth hurts. Matalino, ulet.

Jenne - we both love apple green :> Maganda. Chix. Mukhang Japanese. Mukhang cosplayer. Always afraid to take risks. Nagmahal ng dalawang Ryan though for me ung pangalawa, more of infatuation lang. Always conscious, especially body conscious. Mabait. Dancer sa Piyu, dance company (Dcoy). Loves to Dougie.

Arnel - Gray kasi emo.. "Minsan kasi..." ang madrama niyang panimula. Seryoso. Pag nahigh, maingay. MONEY SOURCE. HAHA =) MUSICALLY INCLINED! Nakakainsecure. He can play guitar, drums, piano and a bit of violin. I bet he can also play flute. I think he can play everything. Loves Notch.

Jhong - favorite color niya kaya blue and yellow. Ang jeje ng color ng name. Pero ayaw niya sa jeje. Gwapo. Tall. Very Dark (ayon sa kanya). Handsome. Madaming may crush diyan. Walang pakialam. Laging late. Concern. Late ulet. Mukhang madaming girlfriend pero isa pa lang yan. Late ulet. Vain lalo na pag may salamin. Late. Milktea. Late ulet.

Angelica - pink kasi mahinhin. Gustong gustong uminom. May family problems. Mabait. May one sided relationship with Samonte. :) Tinuturuan kong magsmile na labas ang ngipin. :D Sabi ni Andeng, "Mahinhin on the outside, pokpok on the inside" Pero hindi naman literal yan. Hahaha

Kris Andrea - favorite color niya, purple. Galing UP Manila. Nag nursing dun. 3rd na, lumipat pa para mag medtech kasi she doesn't really want nursing in the first place, her parents does though. Irregular samin. Every wednesday and saturday lang namin nakakasama. KALOG. GC. Riyadh, Saudi Arabia is her province. Taray.. :)







*Next sem ulet! :) Sana makasabay ko sila. Hindi, DAPAT makasabay ko sila =D

I WILL BE STILL

I'm trying to be positive in every way. I'm trying to smile and laugh despite all the problems. I'm trying and striving hard to go on. I'm trying... hard, not to give up. But sometimes it's hard to hide all the feelings. I don't wanna cry 'cause i know ALL of these, will end but there are times that crying is the only way to wash away all the bad things, all the brokenness, and all the sacrifices that were wasted and led to nowhere.

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will soar with You above the storm.."

At times, i wanna escape and leave everything and just run and run and run and run...and run. But if i leave, the situation will always BE there. It'll never leave. It'll just haunt me and hurt me ALL the time.. and then i'll cry and cry again.. until i reach my weakness and i'll be forever broken.

I wanna be STILL. I really wanna be..

I'm crying right now..  but it's okay to cry, right? Or sob? Or maybe to shed a tear? I can't say this to anybody. I want to cause I want somebody to just maybe, understand me? To listen to me.. JUST LISTEN. That would be a big, great help. To just listen like I listen to them. Like I listen to those who need an ear. Like I listen to those who are alone. Like I listen to them... .......

I tend to hide my emotions inside until the time comes that i can't hold it any longer, until i'm so broken.. and then I cry my heart out on somewhere where people won't see me. Like right now..

"Father you are King over the flood.."

Know what I learn? That in this kind of situations, in this time of life, when you are in your weakness, when you are full of heartaches, when you are broken so much, when everything seems to NOT going your way, when everything seems so wrong, when everything seems so complicated, when everything you see hurts you, when the wheel of life turns and you're below it and it seems like you're stuck in it and it never turns again, when everyone shouts at you, when everything's at war, when you can't find peace, when life takes everything that's important to you, when you can't feel love, when no one listens to you... HE WILL. HE WILL.

"Find rest my soul. In Christ alone. Know His power.. in quietness and trust.."

I need a listener and He lend me His ear.
I need to cry and He wiped my tears.
I need a shoulder and He hugged me deeply.
I need a lover and He touched my heart.
I need Him, and He gave His all...

Now I need nothing, only Him and Him alone.

I WILL BE STILL I PROMISE. I'LL TRY HARDER I SWEAR. I'LL NEVER GIVE UP 'CAUSE HE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME. I'LL BE MYSELF AND BE A BLESSING TO OTHERS. I'LL LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND. I SHALL SMILE. I SHALL LAUGH. I SHALL LIVE THE TRUE MEANING OF LIFE WITHOUT REGRETS, WITHOUT HEARTACHES, WITHOUT TEARS OF SADNESS. . I SHALL LOVE...

"I will be still and know You are God... "