THis contains grammatical errors and i don'care.
How will I start.. HEY BLOG! (That sounds too old-ish.)
Hey blog that i don't know how to start with. I am bored. As you can see I am staring into the wilderness of this laptop and is fascinated on words that i am typing. And i promise that whatever nonsense thing I write in this post will not be a hindrance to publish this thing that i am writing now because! it will serve as a memory of my boredomness..
So, I played badminton a while ago but my brother stopped to play with his friends. My dad went to the clubhouse to watch basketball and my brother and Ate Mhy went out to i don't know, they always do that. So here I am, all alone. I am thinking SERIOUSLY about my life right now and i'm trying to realize the right thing to do, my dreams and what i really really really want..
INtroduction.. (let's start with this. OKAY)
My name is Tatjana Meghann C. Canaleja. I am 16 years old, I love number 9 (not because it's my birthday) and I also love December (again, not because it's my birthmonth) I am the eldest among my 2 siblings. I carry all the problems, aside of course from my parents. I am the eldest so I understand things more than my other two childish brothers. I am also the only girl and i am happy with it. Because i don't really like girly stuffs. I am not girly. I'm a little boyish. But I am not too boyish. Sometimes I wonder what will I look like if I became one of the girls in my generation. You know, where fashion is a must.
Cause you see, everywhere i go, i tend to see that SAME kind of dress or fashion and I don't like it. They all look the same! No úniqueness. But it's still okay, you kow. I don't bother, I don't care I just giving my opinion that if ever I got the chance to dress the way I wanted to, i would not look up to them. But if they want it, it's okay. I would not judge them just because they dress that way. I don't want judging people because i don;t want them judging me too. Sometimes i feel jealous, because i can't do what i want to do. i can't dress the way i want too (but i am not insecure to those things i said above). We're not rich. And everytime I have money, I always end giving it to my mom or buy gifts to my brother or buy things that I NEED, not what I want. Whenever I go out with my friends, they dress beautifully while I dress the same thing over and over again. I am not blaming my parents because i know they want the best for us and i am not blaming anyone i just want to LET THIS ALL OUT.
Okay, that's loooong. Another thing, 3 weeks and i'll be in college in Far Eastern University as a MedTech student. I never had FEU in one my choices really. I don't know why I ended up there but it's okay. And I will be living in a dormitory. I'm gonna meet new friends, new classmates and new environment. I don't know what to do on the first day... maybe i'll just. whatever... i don't want to plan about the first day i just want to let it flow naturally.
AND MY DREAMS. Do I really wanna be a doctor? Yes i want. Because right now, that's the only course, job and thing that i want to do. Engineer? not really...
THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT: To serve the children. to maybe umm.. built a house for them, for ALL the street children so they wouldn't have to sleep on the streets and to save them from the bad people that force them to work. I want to be a voluntary doctor. My mom said that she wants me to be a doctor because that's a realllly reallly dedicating job and it can give you a lot of money. But i don't want money, I wanna help. Of course money is a need, an essential. I would be lying if I said i don't want money ( I just said it right?) But what i mean, is that I don't need to be a very rich doctor. I wanna be a doctor for the poor. For the people who doesn't have money to pay for. BUT HOW CAN I HELP WITHOUT MONEY RIGHT? GOVERNMENT? I DOUBT IT. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.. It's so confusing. Sigh, God knows the answer..
My youngest brother and Ate Mhy is finally here and i don't want them to read what i wrote so goodbye for now..
I have a lot of thoughts but i'll just keep them hanging for now..
*Nagpakulot na nga pala ko, last last week..
*Ang drama ng mga palabas sa tv.. tss..
How will I start.. HEY BLOG! (That sounds too old-ish.)
Hey blog that i don't know how to start with. I am bored. As you can see I am staring into the wilderness of this laptop and is fascinated on words that i am typing. And i promise that whatever nonsense thing I write in this post will not be a hindrance to publish this thing that i am writing now because! it will serve as a memory of my boredomness..
So, I played badminton a while ago but my brother stopped to play with his friends. My dad went to the clubhouse to watch basketball and my brother and Ate Mhy went out to i don't know, they always do that. So here I am, all alone. I am thinking SERIOUSLY about my life right now and i'm trying to realize the right thing to do, my dreams and what i really really really want..
INtroduction.. (let's start with this. OKAY)
My name is Tatjana Meghann C. Canaleja. I am 16 years old, I love number 9 (not because it's my birthday) and I also love December (again, not because it's my birthmonth) I am the eldest among my 2 siblings. I carry all the problems, aside of course from my parents. I am the eldest so I understand things more than my other two childish brothers. I am also the only girl and i am happy with it. Because i don't really like girly stuffs. I am not girly. I'm a little boyish. But I am not too boyish. Sometimes I wonder what will I look like if I became one of the girls in my generation. You know, where fashion is a must.
Cause you see, everywhere i go, i tend to see that SAME kind of dress or fashion and I don't like it. They all look the same! No úniqueness. But it's still okay, you kow. I don't bother, I don't care I just giving my opinion that if ever I got the chance to dress the way I wanted to, i would not look up to them. But if they want it, it's okay. I would not judge them just because they dress that way. I don't want judging people because i don;t want them judging me too. Sometimes i feel jealous, because i can't do what i want to do. i can't dress the way i want too (but i am not insecure to those things i said above). We're not rich. And everytime I have money, I always end giving it to my mom or buy gifts to my brother or buy things that I NEED, not what I want. Whenever I go out with my friends, they dress beautifully while I dress the same thing over and over again. I am not blaming my parents because i know they want the best for us and i am not blaming anyone i just want to LET THIS ALL OUT.
Okay, that's loooong. Another thing, 3 weeks and i'll be in college in Far Eastern University as a MedTech student. I never had FEU in one my choices really. I don't know why I ended up there but it's okay. And I will be living in a dormitory. I'm gonna meet new friends, new classmates and new environment. I don't know what to do on the first day... maybe i'll just. whatever... i don't want to plan about the first day i just want to let it flow naturally.
AND MY DREAMS. Do I really wanna be a doctor? Yes i want. Because right now, that's the only course, job and thing that i want to do. Engineer? not really...
THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT: To serve the children. to maybe umm.. built a house for them, for ALL the street children so they wouldn't have to sleep on the streets and to save them from the bad people that force them to work. I want to be a voluntary doctor. My mom said that she wants me to be a doctor because that's a realllly reallly dedicating job and it can give you a lot of money. But i don't want money, I wanna help. Of course money is a need, an essential. I would be lying if I said i don't want money ( I just said it right?) But what i mean, is that I don't need to be a very rich doctor. I wanna be a doctor for the poor. For the people who doesn't have money to pay for. BUT HOW CAN I HELP WITHOUT MONEY RIGHT? GOVERNMENT? I DOUBT IT. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.. It's so confusing. Sigh, God knows the answer..
My youngest brother and Ate Mhy is finally here and i don't want them to read what i wrote so goodbye for now..
I have a lot of thoughts but i'll just keep them hanging for now..
*Nagpakulot na nga pala ko, last last week..
*Ang drama ng mga palabas sa tv.. tss..
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