Funny.

I'm okay now. I am so angry a while ago.. REALLY ANGRY. I know why but it's hard to explain. Sometimes nodding and saying "okay lang naman ako e" is easy than explaining further. Right? Especially when they won't understand and just judge you. My head aches, maybe because i've been trying to hide my feelings for a long time. I don't wanna cry, that will do no good. I wanna go out and go somewhere else but where? Reading novels would help, i think. Escaping from reality and creating your own world sounds good. Should do it now, you think? Who am i even talking to here?

-I sound  so emo above HAHAHA funny. Whatever, i'll just escape from this reality now. CHING!

Nagiinarteng post.

THis contains grammatical errors and i don'care.

How will I start.. HEY BLOG! (That sounds too old-ish.)

Hey blog that  i don't know how to start with. I am bored. As you can see I am staring into the wilderness of this laptop and is fascinated on words that i am typing. And i promise that whatever nonsense thing I write in this post will not be a hindrance to publish this thing that i am writing now because! it will serve as a memory of my boredomness..

So, I played badminton a while ago but my brother stopped to play with his friends. My dad went to the clubhouse to watch basketball and my brother and Ate Mhy went out to i don't know, they always do that. So here I am, all alone. I am thinking SERIOUSLY about my life right now and i'm trying to realize the right thing to do, my dreams and what i really really really want..

INtroduction.. (let's start with this. OKAY)

My name is Tatjana Meghann C. Canaleja. I am 16 years old, I love number 9 (not because it's my birthday) and I also love December (again, not because it's my birthmonth) I am the eldest among my 2 siblings. I carry all the problems, aside of course from my parents. I am the eldest so I understand things more than my other two childish brothers. I am also the only girl and i am happy with it. Because i don't really like girly stuffs. I am not girly. I'm a little boyish. But I am not too boyish. Sometimes I wonder what will I look like if I became one  of the girls in my generation. You know, where fashion is a must.

Cause you see, everywhere i go, i tend to see that SAME kind of dress or fashion and I don't like it. They all look the same! No úniqueness. But it's still okay, you kow. I don't bother, I don't care I just giving my opinion that if ever I got the chance to dress the way I wanted to, i would not look up to them. But if they want it, it's okay. I would not judge them just because they dress that way. I don't want judging people because i don;t want them judging me too. Sometimes i feel jealous, because i can't do what i want to do. i can't dress the way i want too (but i am not insecure to those things i said above). We're not rich. And everytime I have money, I always end giving it to my mom or buy gifts to my brother or buy things that I NEED, not what I want. Whenever I go out with my friends, they dress beautifully while I dress the same thing over and over again. I am not blaming my parents because i know they want the best for us and i am not blaming anyone i just want to LET THIS ALL OUT.

Okay, that's loooong. Another thing, 3 weeks and i'll be in college in Far Eastern University as a MedTech student. I never had FEU in one my choices really. I don't know why I ended up there but it's okay. And I will be living in a dormitory. I'm gonna meet new friends, new classmates and new environment. I don't know what to do on the first day... maybe i'll just. whatever... i don't want to plan about the first day i just want to let it flow naturally.

AND MY DREAMS. Do I really wanna be a doctor? Yes i want. Because right now, that's the only course, job and thing that i want to do. Engineer? not really...

THIS IS WHAT I REALLY WANT: To serve the children. to maybe umm.. built a house for them, for ALL the street children so they wouldn't have to sleep on the streets and to save them from the bad people that force them to work. I want to be a voluntary doctor. My mom said that she wants me to be a doctor because that's a realllly reallly dedicating job and it can give you a lot of money. But i don't want money, I wanna help. Of course money is a need, an essential. I would be lying if I said i don't want money ( I just said it right?) But what i mean, is that I don't need to be a very rich doctor. I wanna be a doctor for the poor. For the people who doesn't have money to pay for. BUT HOW CAN I HELP WITHOUT MONEY RIGHT? GOVERNMENT? I DOUBT IT. THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.. It's so confusing. Sigh, God knows the answer..

My youngest brother and Ate Mhy is finally here and i don't want them to read what i wrote so goodbye for now..

I have a lot of thoughts but i'll just keep them hanging for now..

*Nagpakulot na nga pala ko, last last week..
*Ang drama ng mga palabas sa tv.. tss..

CELEBRITY CRUSHES.

John O'Callaghan

Josh Farro

Shirota Yuu

Alex Pettyfer

Garret Hedlund

Ian Somerhalder

Chace Crawford

SCRABBLE. Ang laro ng mga bored.

Tulad ko. Tulad namin. Ngayong summer, walang araw na hindi kami naglaro ng SCRABBLE. Umaga, hapon, at minsan gabi pa, scrabble lang. Kabisado ko na kung ilang letters, value at ang mga techniques. Nafifeel ko nga na sa susunod na mga laban ko outside this house, ang laki ng lamang ko e. Ang yabang ko no! Kakainin ko din yang mga sinabi ko.  =)))

Ngayong araw ang pinaka walang kwentang araw ng summer na to. NAKAKATAMAD, MAINIT. Ewaan.. nakakatamad kasi hindi ako gumagalaw. Walang kwenta tong post na to kaya titigilan ko na at maghahanap na lang ng something worth it. Sayang ang oras. Time is gold, sabi nga..