Bakasyon na bakasyon pa ang utak ko. Walang bahid ng kahit anong kasipagan ang nanalatay sa buong pagkatao ko ngayon. Minsan naiisip ko ano na kayang mangyayai sakin kung ganito ako? Sa ngayon, ang gusto ko lang gawin ay kulayan ang buhok ko. KASO, wala akong pambayad or pambili ng tama at maayos-at-hindi-nagdadry-sa-buhok na kulay. Ang selfish ko ngayon. 

First day of school kahapon ngayong 2014, eto naramdaman ko kahapon, i feel bobo. I'm losing confidence now. My anxieties has won over me, that 

should not happen but it does. Poooooor me.. 

F C K. A N X I E T Y

Most of the time, I wish I looked like Audrey Hepburn

Why is she so perfect? :) But with her perfect face and body, she still doesn't know why many people found her beautiful. According to Audrey in Rome (written by his son, Luca Dotti) Dotti explains, "She thought she had a big nose and big feet, and she was too skinny and not enough breast. She would look in the mirror and say, ‘I don't understand why people see me as beautiful.'"

It just proves that everybody has body issues. But with beauty like that? Why? That is such a sad fact to know that a beautiful woman like her is not confident enough with her body. Everybody should learn how to accept his/her own body. <whispers> I'm starting/trying to accept mine hihi.

She's one of the MOST BEAUTIFUL people that I've met/seen.

THE LAST NIGHT

I'm praying for this for how many months and Lord is so faithful para ibigay niya sakin to. Grabe..
I'm so blessed to have people like them around me. Sobrang saya!! Ang sarap sa feeling at sa buooong pagkatao. Eto na. Eto na ang simula..

This is the song of my life <3

THE LAST NIGHT by Skillet

You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be
Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be
The last night away from me

The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand
I will help you hold on
Tonight, tonight

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me

HEART HEART HEART

  

   

*pics are not mine. They're from google.

MIYUSIK.

Sabi ko ayoko ng kumanta. Sabi ko di ko na feel yun. Wala ng... SPARK. Pero hindi talaga siya umaalis sakin e. Lagi lang siyang andyan at narealize ko, I really wanna sing. Kahit saan. Kahit kailan. Lalo na kapag may magandang kanta, ansarap gumawa ng sarili mong version. ;)

MUSIC. One of the things that I can't live without. I like and I listen to all kinds of genres except Metal and Heavy Metal. It varies and it depends on my mood but the main kind or type of music i listen to is rock. Alternative/rock or pop/rock or slow/rock or whatever rock it is. Especially band songs. I'm not really into solo artist. I don't usually listen to Celine Dion type or Whitney Houston.

Paramore. Skillet. All time low. Versaemerge. Evanescence. We the Kings. Mayday Parade. Fall Out Boy. Linkin Park. Meg and Dia. The Maine. Simple Plan. Avastera. The Script. Eminem. A Rocket To The Moon. Maroon 5. He is We. Usher. Ashes Remain. Avril Lavigne. Train. Boys Like Girls. Breaking Benjamin. Bruno Mars. Casting Crowns. Chris Brown. Neyo. Yeng Constantino. Parokya ni Edgar. Kamikazee. Gloc 9. Jason Mraz. John Mayer. Rihanna. Sara Bareilles and etc..

I play guitar pero di bongga. Drums? Pangarap ko :))))) Sobrang pangarap ko. Piano, ok lang. Di rin ako marunong pero may kabisado ako. Hahaha. Gusto ko ngang magkamusic room e. Kaso uso sa horror ang music room e (or feeling ko lang). Nakakainis at nakakalungkot nga dahil di ako pwedeng magearphones or headphone dahil may something ako sa tenga. Pag kumanta, minsan sumasakit din. Pero it should not be a hindrance!

Sabi ko ayoko ng kumanta. Sabi ko di ko na feel yun. Wala ng... SPARK. Pero hindi talaga siya umaalis sakin e. Lagi lang siyang andyan at narealize ko, I really wanna sing. Kahit saan. Kahit kailan. Lalo na kapag may magandang kanta, ansarap gumawa ng sarili mong version. ;)

Blessing to sakin e and i really thank God for it. Kaya dapat tong ishare at maging blessing sa iba. <3

Thoughts would never leave me..

Staying up late feels good.

Lahat tulog na. The night is very peaceful. Everything seems to be in place. Mas gumagana utak ko, lalo na pag mga 3 or 4 ng umaga. But i'm also a scaredy cat. Buti na lang may net. I can't live without an internet connection. GUSTO KO KASING DUMALDAL kaso wala naman akong kadaldalan.

Facebook, tumblr, browse, check, surf, comment, like, blog, reblog, copy, paste, queue, review, search, watch, amaze, inspire, judge, type, add, text, capture, play, pause, stop, rewind, next, preview, previous...

I can't sleep. I wanna go somewhere. I wanna visit someone, everyone, anyone.. I wanna dance. I wanna talk. I wanna sing. I wanna do everything.. I don't wanna sleep.

Ang pagmamahal ng ipis sa isang paru-paro.

So it's been 5 days since sembreak. Not sure if 5 days. Mahirap kasi pag walang pasok, di mo alam ang date. Kahit nga may pasok di ko pa din alam ang date e. NVMND. Isa pa, nakakatamad ding maligo ng maaga. Late ako natutulog tas maaga nagigising. Stress break ata to e. Hahaha.

Anyway, i'm bored, kasi walang pera. I can't go anywhere. :(( I've made a tumblr account ulet. Nafeel ko lang ulet magganun after a very long time. http://ijustrockdude.tumblr.com/

Alam mo, gusto kong dumaldal ngayon. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Mag swimming. Kaso kelangan ng ticket. E magpapabili pa lang ako.. Bakit? Bakit kelangan kong magdusa ng ganito?! Charot lang.

EI. Nabawasan pala ang pagkamoody ko ngayon. Galeng no. Alam mo ba.. na wala akong maisip. Sabaw ako ngayon. Gusto ko lang magtype at ipopost ko to kahit nonsense. NAIINIS PALA KO nakalimutan ko. HAHAHAHAH MUNTANGA NAKALIMUTAN. Eniweys. Nakakainis yung FEU Website kasi ayaw magbukas. :( Pero actually, di naman ako naiinis e kasi di naman pala ko atat makita yung grades ko. :)

^ang moody ng sinulat ko. Hahahaha

Sakit na ng mata ko. :(
Magbabadminton na lang ako? Or volleyball? E wala naman akong kalaro.. THEY ARE ALL BUSY!!
THE HECK I'LL PLAY BY MYSELF!

Umm.. gusto kong manuod ng horror sa sine. Hihihi :>

Gusto kong magzipline. Gusto kong lumangoy. Gusto kong umakyat ng bundok. Gusto ko magskateboard, gusto kong mag car racing..

I WANNA INHALE FRESH AIR tapos madamo at mapuno ang kapaligiran ko, tapos blue sky, tapos nakadress ako, tapos malakas ang hangin, hinawakan ko tuloy ang dress ko, tapos may nagpicture bigla, ipopost daw sa tumblr at lalagyan ng text. Hahahahahahahahaha.

Thankyou.


Ang pagmamahal ng ipis sa isang paru-paro.

Sorry sabaw.